The other day, I started thinking about my inability to open up. Not mentally, physically… I am so worried about my body implications, that I panic the man who sees it will run for the hills. But could my biggest fear be just a cover? Perhaps, Am I not afraid that a man will judge my body and their flaws but am just afraid to let a man in? For the people out there who write someone off just because of their own self judgments, what are you scared of; What are we scared of? When the time comes to get intimate with your partner, why turn off the lights?
It can’t just be the stretch marks we hide that we have; it can’t just be the ‘folds’ on our bodies that were embarrassed for them to see; and it definitely can’t just be the way our private parts look (girls you know what I mean). Is it a deeper, more subconscious meaning? Have we been worrying about the way god made our bodies not satisfying a man’s standards so long that we’ve developed a wall in ourselves? A wall that blocks any one’s entrance truly to our hearts.
Maybe we need to start digging a little deeper in ourselves to find out where the real reason we can not open up is buried. Possibly, then, we can keep the lights on.
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